Paddy
Mar 15, 2018

I've been in deep so I know you'll get out

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You're going to be fine, let's do this. First step is to share what you're going through with others who'll definitely have been there too. Then we can all join together and DO! Tell me, how are you?

Mike Wheeler
Mar 15, 2018

I'm getting better. I have been through a really rough time healthwise particularly the last year. Since I started doing a couple of bits of the daily do, I can honestly say I've begun to feel a bit like my old self. It's the start I needed for the snowball.

Paddy
Mar 15, 2018

That's so great that you're getting better Mike. And I LOVE your analogy of the snowball....the upward spiral in ice form! Go Mike!

carmelbyrne
Mar 15, 2018

Hmmmm....physically I have a few things I am struggling with- (Glad to hear that you are getting better Mike). Personally the most difficult thing i am struggling with is the feeling of inadequacy ( due to physical incapacity). Facing another surgery, knowing that more incapacity is inevitable, I feel slightly calmer knowing that i have Daily Do help and regimes to guide me and I am hoping I can contain the hopeless and inadequate thoughts and feelings and focus on being positive.

Gracie Falls
Mar 16, 2018

Carmel, I’m with you on this one!❤️

I struggle with a lot of physical pain (currently going to see the rhematologist, wahey!) and chronic fatigue etc. It prevents me from doing SO many things and can make me feel isolated and useless on a daily basis which is NOT productive!

I also struggle with my mental health (I have BPD) and between the head and the body, it is a nightmare!

Luckily I have a wonderful partner and family and friends in the TSA who share my love of music and songwriting to lift me up when needed.

For me, I’d love to be able to just get up, and be productive with the things I love.

I’ve not written a song on my own in a year. A year!!! I’ve written since I was 11 so this is a massive sign that something in my life isn’t adding up at the moment, be it medication making me blase, or just loss of confidence and needing a kick up the butt to get started again and not get absorbed into work life (I run my own business also as of last February which has somewhat taken over my life. Meh.)

 

So yes. I feel incredibly stuck these days and I am here to Daily Do something about it!

Baby steps back into the water.

xx

Paddy
Mar 16, 2018

Go Gracie for putting that out there on here! The more we share our vulnerabilities the stronger we become because we smash through our ideas of what people think by simply being entirely us. It might be uncomfortable at first but we're left with a shameless clarity that I love and thrive from. Good on you and all here for getting cracking with saying it as it is which in turn affects how it will be. Love that! And I can help with getting you back into your writing with some practical ways to reconnect creatively.....

Mike Wheeler
Mar 16, 2018

Just want to send Carmel and Gracie a hug. (((Carmel))) (((Gracie)))

carmelbyrne
Mar 16, 2018

thanks Mike 😊.

Gracie, I really feel for you. Chronic pain is super debilitating and sadly, often the side effects of chronic pain are underdiagnosed. I send you a big hug too.

I know that having a supportive partner and family is wonderful, but sometimes it doesnt always help....I end up feeling guilty when I I can’t do something and have to ask...I hate feeling dependant. My career has definitely suffered- being a vet with a non functioning hand just doesn’t work and I really miss being a surgeon- something I know I was good at. I do manage (frequently) to count my blessings that I have diversified and can still work within the profession but sometimes it is just crap. ( I dont really share this very much and feel better for doing so! )

I am sure your creativity hiatus is a ”blip”. Make sure your meds are doing what they should, make sure you have some time just for you...small steps and I am sure once again it will flow. Good luck xx

Gracie Falls
Mar 20, 2018

I lovethat Paddy! shameless clarity! ❤️

I’m looking forward to hearing the practical tips on getting back into creativity!

 

Thanks Mike for the hug! I now cannot think of you without that Yellow Tshirt!😄

 

Carmel, yes exactly! I hate asking for help, and I have to do so now, so maybe it’s life’s way of slowing me down and accept help and take stock of my life and figure out once and for all what I want for myself and not what others thin I should be. Guilt is a big part of it, but I know I need to be kinder to myself as I’m sure you do too.

hugs!!

xx

 

Mike Wheeler
Apr 15, 2018

Well that was a sticky spot. Had a bit a down dip but have managed to get through it. Fell into the trap of seeing what other people are up to and how much success they're having and looking at my own position where I'm currently not. Had this overwhelming feeling of running out of time ! Just had to reset myself and tell myself that my path is different to theirs. I just need to focus of myself and work, work, work at what I love doing and it will happen. Down dips will happen and will pass. Just need to recognise the signs and focus on positives rather that the nagative thoughts that accompany the down dips.